Right now I am currently existing on a hope and a prayer.
If you could eat words, I am metaphorically dropping these into my bowl and surviving solely the nourishment of my hope in them and my interpretation of them:
If you want something you’ve never had, you have to be willing to do something you’ve never done.
Now this could mean prostitution to some, but I’m not willing and I don’t want that that I have never had in that case.
It does mean to me taking a risk, a gamble.
It means to me that I can’t expect, realistically, to achieve something I’m not willing to try for.
Since I research everything and I have a YouTube IV drip, I not only make leaps of faith and hope, I also feel confident that I can reasonably make educated decisions as well. I don’t do things blindly.
Having to force myself to breathe every day, inhale the hope and trust and patience, exhale the questions and doubt and impatience, is a new and labored thing for me to learn.
I just have to trust the universe and my own ideas.
Later kids. Make good choices.